Days 271 - 285
Post date: Apr 7, 2017 5:21:34 PM
FRIDAY - FRIDAY
I finished the most interesting book: I Wish He Had Come with Instructions: The Woman's Guide to a Man's Brain by Mike Bechtle. Fascinating. The book isn't about fixing relationships or solving problems, it is about the way a man's brain works. They think differently than women. This is not wrong or bad, it is just different. I have found a profound appreciation for men. It is not that all of a sudden I "get them" or "understand them" because, I don't. It is more that I can look at them and listen to them and what they are saying has found a place of understanding in my brain.
I find myself going, "Oh, I see." It has changed the way I teach my students. It has changed my relationship with my husband and my sons. I don't want them to be like me, I want them to be like them. Now, if you get the book and read it and walk away going, I knew all of that, well you are probably a man. Super sound information for the other 50% of us.
I'm sitting at a robotics tournament in Athens. I've taken the past two days off of work. My stress level at writing lesson plans and leaving students is remarkable low. I actually have none. They will be fine. They can survive without me. That knowledge is so freeing. It is also worth noting, the pets, at home, will get fed. The world will keep on spinning even if I don't try to control everything.
A couple of days ago, I was fried. My brain hurt. Pollen was not playing nice with my head. I was so tired and worn out. I found myself apologizing for being so very crabby. I just wanted to go to bed. Reaching our limits is a normal thing. I'm just glad it isn't a daily thing anymore. It is rare.
I've been having fun on Twitter. You can follow me @kelleymlikes. It is nice to write. It is nice to create. It is nice to put my stuff out there and see what happens. I thought about writing about my life, but I'm not sure I want to delve into that darkness. I'm having so much fun in the light, I don't want to rehash the past.
I hope you are finding healing on your journey. If you feel like everyone is driving you crazy, it isn't them, it is you. Start working the steps. The steps hold so much healing. Attending meetings, it is nice to know you are not alone. I wish I could say it becomes easier. It doesn't, it just becomes normal! Love and take care of yourself!