Days 153 - 162
Post date: Dec 6, 2016 12:19:48 AM
SATURDAY - MONDAY
I haven't meant to neglect my posting, but I've been exhausted. The start of a new term, teaching 5 classes without a break, seminary at 6:30 a.m., needless to say I've been really tired.
I've been really crabby too. Like majorly crabby. Like codependent crabby, only not codependent, just tired. I haven't been taking very good care of myself. It's exhausting. Like trying to run a race, only you're still in bed with the sheets pulled around your head.
It's been tough. Then, on Thursday, I received an email from my missionary son. Now, he's only allowed to email on Mondays so my first thought was what's wrong. Nothing was wrong. His email began:
Thank you for everything you have done for me! I really appreciate the
things that you have done for me throughout my life. Thanks for all
the hard work you have done to support me! Today is the second day of
the church's new initiative, 25 ways over 25 days, and we have
permission to write you this letter today to contact you! I love you
both you guys are awesome!
I needed to hear those words from my son. I needed to be shocked back into the world of it's all going to work out.
Then my daughter gave me a hug, you know, the one who never hugs me. She told me she loves me.
I made it to Sunday. I was actually smiling. I'd made it through the rough patch. I told my family Mondays and Tuesdays will be tough for me. I apologized for my behavior over the past week.
I'm still tired. But tomorrow is Tuesday and then I have a couple of easier days. Friday isn't much fun either.
On Sunday, I had the opportunity to bear my testimony. God knows you. He is the Father of your Spirit. You are His spirit son or daughter. He has known you for a very long time. Before the earth was, we had a council in heaven, we were all there. This was before Adam, before Eve. God has known us that long. And that knowledge is deep. He knows things we are good at, which we don't even know. He knows us. He loves us.
Imagine an infant. Now imagine a stranger picking up that infant. Instant unhappiness. Then the infant goes back into the arms of his parents. Love. Safety. This is the love Heavenly Father has for us. He has known us for far longer than how ever many years we have been on this earth.
He knows you. He loves you. This I know to be true. His plan for our lives is amazing, because we are His and He is ours.
And as far as taking care of myself, sometimes all it requires is eating a banana and taking a nap.